For my beloved late Mum...

For my beloved late Mum...
Mom lived her life for love of friends and familyMy mother passed away on March 25thI loved her deeply; now she's simply gone.All my life I'd known that I was loved,Living in the circle of her arms.I can't believe her love is not somewhere,So strong it was, so much a part of me.I feel it in the harsh salt of the seaAnd in the stinging sadness of the wind.I ride the waves along the rock-strewn shore.No one watches me with fear and pride.Now among the stars I am alone.In her heart I had my only home.Mom lived her life for love of friends and family,Neither asking for nor wanting a return.Her days became a sunlit homily,With others' joy her joy and main concern.When we were ill, she also became sick;When we were cut, she, too, began to bleed.Of our oil lamp she was the wick,Drawing her bright flame from our need.Some say that such behavior's out of date:That self-fulfillment is the way to grace.But Mom, without much choice, then chose her fate,Finding greater truth in an embrace.She lives on in the sparkle in our eyes:Laughing, quiet, gentle, loving, wise.I miss you, but I cannot make you miss me.I need you, but you do not know my need.I want you, but I cannot make you kiss me.I suffer, but I cannot make you bleed.I beseech you, but you will not be beguiled.The door's locked, and you will not let me in.You're my mon, but I cannot be your child.I've lost you, and I can't take back my sin.Like an earth no longer with its sun,Shooting towards eternity alone,I no longer circle anyone,An aimless, mindless, wandering piece of stone.Ah, Mon! It would be so sad if weWould journey through to darkness separately.

Deeply missed and forever etched in my heart mum............ I love you!

By Gora